There comes a time when you realize your marriage is over and as part of the moving on process you start to date again.
I had the opportunity to have a fling two weeks after finding out my husband had been having an affair for at least the previous 6 months. It caught me off guard. I wasn’t looking. I wasn’t expecting. I was on vacation with my children. A family vacation we were all supposed to go on together but the discovery of the affair ended that. I didn’t want my ex there and either did my kids. Even though part of our vacation (2 out of 3 weeks) was staying with his parents, he also didn’t want to go (although he said he would have gone if I hadn’t found out he was sleeping with someone else, too).
Every night in Florida my children and I would take the golf cart down to the pool around 9:00 p.m. We would swim and hot tub. For the first week of vacation, it was just me and my younger daughter. On our first night there we met a very beautiful man, inside and out. He was so kind and generous. He was very open about his life and was very interested in our lives asking both of us questions that showed a sincere eagerness to get to know us. He had a beautiful spirit. He was well-liked by the others that lived in the community as evidenced by the regulars that showed up for their evening swim. The caretakers trusted him and allowed us to stay past 11:00 p.m. every night giving him the responsibility of closing the hot tub and locking up the clubhouse and gate afterwards.
As our relationship built, my younger daughter would be watching the clock and if it was past 9:00 p.m. and I was still sitting talking to my in-laws she would come and get me to say that Aaron would probably be there by now so we should go. If we got there first, she was constantly watching the gate for him to come in. Every night he arrived. I found myself anticipating him coming through the gate as well.
He invited us to do a lot of things during the days and evenings and go to places where he was also planning to attend. He told us about beaches we should check out and places we should shop and eat. We met him one evening on the beach where there was a drumming circle (he had learned that I took African drumming lessons so insisted we had to join him for this). There was a fire-pit, hula-hooping and other free-spirited activities as well as arts and crafts vendors. It was a very joyous event. He asked to borrow my camera. I didn’t realize until afterwards that he used it to take random photos of my daughter and me enjoying our time together. It was so sweet and a gesture that meant a lot to me since I was always the one in our family who recorded the memories and rarely did anyone, especially my husband, take a photo of me unless I asked.
My younger daughter couldn’t wait to introduce him to my older daughter and her friend when they arrived the next week. They opened up to him right away and he helped them with their perspective on school, stress and boys really giving them some deep insights on his life philosophy that seemed to make a positive impact.
My older daughter said that he was obviously interested in me and we should go and buy condoms that night. I assured her that I would definitely not be taking our relationship to that level. She wanted me to be with him so much and when I questioned her about it she said that it would serve dad right and that it would help me to heal. I promised her that revenge sex was never the answer and that random sex with someone you barely knew was not beneficial at all (although that was my mom answer to a 15-year old because I did entertain the thought and I did buy condoms just in case).
I think it was God’s sense of humour and his assurance to me that I would be fine. Aaron would show up at the pool in a white bathing suit that didn’t leave much to the imagination. He had an amazing body. He was younger than me but I never did ask him his age. I showed up at the pool looking my worst–no makeup, over weight, wearing a mom bathing suit that was completely lacking sex appeal, and my hair would be wet and/or pulled back in a pseudo bun/ponytail thing. But Aaron made me feel desirable and wanted. It turns out that he was a nude model. He showed me photos of sketches taken on his phone that students had drawn of him as he posed. When my girls were distracted he showed me the real thing. I saw that there was definitely “more” out there. It was all such a funny and surreal situation coming on the heels of the devastating realization about the infidelity of my husband just a couple of weeks earlier. We had each others phone numbers and although he invited me to his place after taking my girls home I couldn’t be that example for my kids. Plus I was staying with my in-laws! I considered sneaking out but I just couldn’t bring myself to do it.
On our last night there he brought 5 Chinese lanterns and took us into the field behind the pool where we lit them and released them making wishes. When we were saying our good-byes he reached up and touched my lip. As inexperienced as I was with another man touching me, I assumed there was something on my lip. He said, “No, I just think you are beautiful. I think you are an amazing person, a great mom and that you are so lucky to have the kids that you have. I am very envious of your family.” Then he kissed me. My daughter’s friend saw this and was so excited to let me and my girls know that she saw this happen.
He has contacted me a few times since, most recently 2 weeks ago. He always sends some nude photos but they are always tasteful, professional, amidst nature or with some artistic flare. I showed my girls just one photo of his nude bum this weekend and we all laughed hysterically. For them I think it is just funny to imagine this young man sending these images to their mom. He asked initially for me to send him some nude photos of myself but I told him I would never do that. He has never asked me since. He tells me that he remembers me fondly, always wants to make sure that I am doing okay and he always asks me when I am coming back to see him.
4 thoughts on “Dating Again”
I’ve been reading your posts for awhile & figured at your last post about him, this was the case. It is so amazing to be needed & desired by someone after such a betrayal. Your crazypants
Sorry should say crazypants ex, deserves to know.
This is nice. I am hoping your trolls just leave you alone about this one. Because everyone deserves to feel sexy